Thursday, August 26, 2010

From The Heart

Half of what I ate today was junk. Argh! I keep telling myself that it’s good to keep on recording everything accurately, but sometimes it is just so hard to come on here and admit to messing up over and over.

I keep on feeling like I am doing better and then I have a day where I just toss everything out the window. I am frustrated – more with myself than anything else.

The worst part about my slide today is that my body really showed me what the consequences of eating like this are. Since I was a teenager I have dealt with very minor heart palpitations, but the problems associated with them all but disappeared as I lost the weight over this past year. Today I felt the very slightest resurgence of this issue.

I am fine and there really is nothing to worry about. But the mild shortness of breath and quickened heartbeat are something I really would rather not have to live with. It’s apparently mostly within my power to control this, so why have I been allowing myself to get away with so much lately?

I really have to get a handle on my actions. I will not go back.

Okay. Once more with feeling: I will NOT go back!

That’s not quite good enough…



- 7 glasses of water
- 1 cup blackberries
- 1 wrap on a soft tortilla shell with deli ham, cheese, dried cranberries, spinach, fat free Miracle Whip, mustard, and pepper
- 2 slices of whole grain toast with light peanut butter and light strawberry jam
- 1 breaded fish burger on a hamburger bun with 1/2 a processed cheese slice, lettuce, and mayonnaise
- 2 cups mint chocolate bar ice cream blend
- 1 carrot muffin with cream cheese icing
- 2 pecan macaroons
- 1 lemon cupcake with icing and topped with a sugar candy
- 1 coconut cupcake with icing and topped with a sugar candy
- 1 mug caramel cinnamon dolce steamed skim milk
- 1 slice cheesy garlic bread
- 1 bite chocolate cream puff with whipped cream

- 25 minute walk


  1. I understand about heart palpitations. I have atrial fibrillation and ventricular tachycardia. My heart tells me when I am doing well. Keep listing. It will tell you.

  2. I just saw your video and it was awesome. You look so happy even before you lost the weight. The body is different but the soul is the same. Keep it up and have fun while doing it.

    My weight is staying off because I'm content with myself and my life. My life can not get any better and it is not hard to say that. I notice when I don't worry about weight I keep the weight off. It's a wonderful feeling.

    Good luck and thanks for blogging.

  3. Thank you for sharing this. *HUGS* I love your attitude and I have no doubt you'll get back on the right path. Hang in there.

  4. Just keep at it and you will do fine. You know how to do this! ;)

  5. Take a deep breath. This is scarey, but you are going to push through. Perhaps you need to reassess your food plan--you know, a fresh start, a fresh way. For a week, maybe. A new thing. Deb

  6. I have more insights to this that I am posting about now! :)

  7. I'm so glad that I found your blog! I'm fairly new to this, and my weight loss is pretty slow. I know that it is in my power to speed it up, and I believe that I am headed in the right direction. Like you, I have struggled with heart palpitations since I was a teenager, and food (too much food, chocolate, caffeine, sugar) has a great effect on whether or not they're pretty bad, not so bad, or not really happening. I saw your pictures, and I was blown away by what you have done. WOW! You inspire me, and I'll be following you. Thanks for sharing your journey.

  8. Your Beautiful spirit shined through & I will always remember you as I go through my weight loss journey, that I just started! :-) Thanks for sharing!!