Monday, November 22, 2010


I thought I was handling my stressful day fairly gracefully. I would even go so far as to say that I was in a relatively good mood right up until a couple of hours ago. Then the day caught up with me.

I think the real kicker was that I gave blood this evening, and after an emotionally draining day I probably didn’t really need to also be literally drained. It was just too much. When you find yourself holding back tears in a drugstore while a gospel style song plays in the background, you know that you are overwhelmed.

And I must be a glutton for punishment because I just went online to find that particular piece and I’m listening to it now with a fresh set of tears blurring my vision. Sigh…

I’m not usually so melodramatic – and, truly, nothing is really wrong – but I guess I’m just doing my best to uphold the honesty that I have always tried to maintain on this blog. This is still a place for me to record my weight loss and health journey… but sometimes things move us in some unexpected way and, thus, they affect all of the parts of our lives.

So I write what I feel and know that is never a failure. I continue to do the very best that I can in every moment. And I will wake up tomorrow with a new day in front of me and the difficulties of this one already scattering like autumn foliage in the winds of the past.

- 5 glasses of water
- 3 caramel chocolate chip rice cakes
- 1 mug eggnog steamed skim milk
- 1 pumpkin scone with icing
- 1 cheese, red pepper, and spinach scone with butter
- 1 cup salted pretzels
- 2/3 banana
- 2 small glasses mango juice
- 6 fruit crème cookies
- 2 cups mint chocolate bar ice cream blend
- 1 small marshmallow chocolate bar
- 1 small peanut butter chocolate bar

- 15 minute walk


  1. it's a beautiful song. sometimes music is what the soul needs.

  2. That's the spirit. They are your feelings, and you have a right to them :)

  3. But, you have stopped *recording* your weight loss. Stopped responding to your followers. Stopped sharing experiences. You are only skimming surfaces. I wonder if you are even reading comments any longer. I understand the struggle, I've been there. But you are ignoring a huge part of blogging. You are ignoring the elephant in the room.

  4. Sometimes, we have an expectation
    That just doesn't work out....
    for what-ever the reason.
    Or reasons.
    Whatever is going on, please take heart.

  5. Love me some gospel music. :) Big hugs to you girl. :)

  6. I'm sure you did handle a stressful day beautifully. Tears over a beautiful song are okay once in a while. Especially if they keep a mind bright and able to cope.

    I love the image of your day blowing away like leaves behind you. Gorgeous. Day done. Check.


  7. Continue to be honest. It is good. It's necessary. And do that in your weekly weigh-in. You need to update that. It's been more than a month. Post the number. Be accountable. It does help.

    And if music helps, listen to it. Take it with you. And take healthy snacks with you. Some few things that give you nutrients--cheese and veggies, hummus and whole grain crackers, fruit, a protein shake, something that gives you some vitamins/minerals/good stuff. YOu're addicted to sugar and sugary snacks. They'll kill you! Stop!

  8. I hope you have a better day every way!

  9. Amen sista! Music is one of my most important aspects of life. And a good cry is more healing than a nice day. Cry it out honey!

  10. Crap, crap and more crap .... nothing of any nutritional value there. Maybe you will find some inspiration in music. It really can be uplifting.

  11. I don't think you're being melodramatic at all! Some days are tougher than others, and you've decided you're going to let yourself feel your emotions and be honest with us about all of it. I say bravo to you! Keep on doing it, you're such an inspiration to me!

  12. So much support here. But I fear its not even being read.