Wednesday, November 10, 2010

The Wall

I am so tired. I was doing pretty great with my energy throughout the day while I was busy, but as soon as I had a chance to sit for a few minutes I just hit a wall. I hadn’t thought I was doing too poorly with getting enough sleep, but I guess I haven’t been doing great with it either. I obviously need a really good night’s rest…

- 4 glasses of water
- 3/4 cup blueberry yogurt
- 1 sandwich on a baguette with deli turkey, cheese, lettuce, and herb mayonnaise
- 1 pumpkin scone with icing
- 1 large apple doughnut
- 1 cup tortilla chips with salsa
- 2 slices of whole grain and cranberry toast with margarine
- 2 toasted English muffins with pepperoni, grated cheese, tomato and basil sauce
- 2 cups mint chocolate bar ice cream blend

- 45 minutes of walking completed in 3 outings (all 15 minutes long)


  1. Through the drive thru again to gorge on icecream. Enjoy being fat.

  2. I hope you do get your rest! If I don't get enough sleep, the first thing I do is eat poorly. Sleep well and have a great tomorrow.

  3. @ Anonymous, what a mean spirited person you are!

  4. Hello, I just stumbled across your blog by accident but I am so PLEASED I did. You have done fantastically!

    You are a true inspiration and I will be back again soon. Well done you!

  5. If you don't have anything nice to say, keep your friggen comments to yourself!

  6. Getting all of the sleep in the world will not keep you energized if you do not properly fuel yourself with good nutrition. I can't remember the last time I saw a good portion of raw fruits and veggies in your diet. You are an addict and it breaks my heart to watch you in this downward spiral. Why TWO cups of this ice cream blend EVERY. SINGLE. DAY? Could you cut it down to half a cup? Or maybe the full two cups but only once a week? Is it really a McD's flurry? Have you read the ingredients list? You are killing yourself. I wish you would at least acknowledge all of the comments and wonderful people that are trying to support you, but that would mean you have to admit that there is a priblem. I've been around enough addicts in my life to know that we could all talk until we are blue in the face, but it's all for naught until you decide you wNt to change. The truth is, you do not believe you are a healthy, fit person. You srill believe you are fat and that you don't deserve anything better. Until you deal with what's going on in your head you will be living this struggle forever. Cheers and I hope you get help.

  7. Oh, and to the first commenter, you've never struggled with your weight, have you.

  8. Hang in, Friend. I'm rooting for you.

  9. I kind of agree with all these Anonymous comments voicing opinions. They are right, but just not going about it right. 266 ... you started this blog for accountability to yourself. You now have 466 "Motivators" who have been there, following you, encouraging you, getting inspiration from you. I feel that you are being disrespectful to all of us. You are not being accountable at all, except to write your food. You are truly struggling. I get it. How many of us have lost a whack of weight and put it all back on? Most of us... Please post your weight and respond to comments. We are following you for a reason, not to bash you. We are all in this together. You really do have a lot of support here and I would hate to see everyone getting so pissed off because you are not being honest with us that there is such a backlash of negativity or no followers. You need us as much as we need you.



  10. Yes I have struggled with my weight. I lost 90lbs. And then I put it all back on. I have only just lost it again.

    My comment sounds harsh in isolation, but myself and some others have been reading this girls blog for a long time. She has asked for advice and a kick up the butt when it's needed. So many people have tried to help her with her obvious struggles, and the big piece of advice has been to stop going through the drive thru and getting the ice cream. Her own HUSBAND asked her to stop. But she keeps doing it, and has put on enough weight that she is now overweight again. After all that hard work.

    I'm done commenting anyway. She's going to eat what she likes and abuse her body, a random on the Internet can't change that. But I know the pattern first hand, she will be obese again soon.

  11. I'm rooting for you too. I'm not sure why the "mood" of your commentors has changed. I guess it is hard for people to watch someone lose control after success. However, it does look like you are trying to get back on track. I am worried that you don't respond to comments like you used to or that you are not weighing in, but...that's your business. I just want you to be happy. You sound distressed in your posts. You are going to be okay. I believe in you.

  12. I have just stumbled across your blog and I think you are amazing! Please ignore the mean spirited commenters who are saying more about their own sad and pitiful selves than they are about you. Clearly at the moment you are experiencing your body's desire to try and return to your old set point. This has nothing to do with lack of control or greed or anything else with a moral slant. It's just what happens after a dramatic weightloss. It would be well worth your while to pop over and visit Debra at has some fantastic info that will really help and make you feel better. I wish I could reach over and give you a big hug and tell you it will all be OK. I think you are very brave posting what you eat each day and it might be helpful to visit a dietician if you can afford it to work on a kinder way of feeding yourself so you feel a bit more in contol. Good luck. Cheer Susan

  13. Look at your pictures sweety. You've come so far, I'd give ANYTHING to be in your shoes right now. Please don't throw it away, please don't go back. I have to believe that I can follow your example. Remember, a few bad days doesn't negate the past year that you've done so amazingly well and you are so inspirational ... don't give up because of a few bad days. You can do this! It's not over! Failure is temporary, it's giving up that makes it permanent!

  14. I believe you are doing the best you know how at this time. People don't understand that some behaviors cannot be controlled by the individual no matter how badly they want to change. Folks wish they could just say the right thing, even a mean remark, and that would somehow help you. They may have good hearts but are sorely misguided. They are powerless over your food choices, as are you right now. Just do what you can. If that means recording your food, if that means exercising, whatever you can do is enough for now. You can't make this merry-go-round turn faster, it goes at its own pace but when it slows down again, leap! Your chance will come, we all wish we could FORCE it. Just be ready.

    Show up. Love yourself. That may be all you can accomplish right now. It is enough. You are enough.

    I'm glad you walked today for 45 minutes. I'm glad you are still writing down your food.


  15. No one should expect 266... to comment. This is her blog not yours. 266... is doing just what we want to do and not one person can stop her. 466...followers is very impressive but it is just a number. I love visiting 266...because she motivates me to get off the couch and eat healthy. Her lack of motivation inspires me to continue my journey of loving myself no matter what size. So thank you so much 266...for being my inspiration. Thank you for taking the time to post your ups and downs. I appreciate you so much!