Thursday, July 1, 2010

Stream Of Consciousness

I really felt like I was on my way back up for a short while there – like I was finally making my way back into my groove and leaving behind the bad habits that had started sneaking their way into my routine. I thought I was doing pretty well.

Now I am just not sure. I definitely don’t think that I am doing as poorly as I was, but it is evident that I am still struggling. I am feeling run down, my hand hurts, and I am lacking the concern for my own well-being that helped get me to this point. Comfort can be a dangerous enemy.

Sometimes I think about just giving myself a break and calling this maintenance, but I know that I would only be caving in. I don’t really care about the number, but the truth is that I am not delivering on all that I am capable of achieving. I can do more than I have been. I just somehow need to rediscover the time, the commitment, and the drive.

- 6 glasses of water
- 2 toasted whole wheat English muffins with light peanut butter and light strawberry jam
- 12 whole grain crackers with 1 light Laughing Cow wedge
- 1 wrap on a soft tortilla shell with deli ham, cheese, dried cranberries, lettuce, fat free Miracle Whip, mustard, and pepper
- 1 1/2 cups Vector cereal
- 1 cranberry almond multi-grain bar
- 1/2 cup corn with margarine
- 1 1/2 cups pasta with Alfredo sauce
- 1 cup herb pork chops with mushrooms
- 2 cups cherries
- 1 mug decaffeinated tea with milk
- 2 cups mint chocolate bar ice cream blend

- 10 squats


  1. just my .02 BUT there is that whole school of thought which would ENCOURAGE YOU to maintain for a while.
    to hang here and this weight and *then* tell you youre allowed :) to work to shed some...

    just a different perspective.

  2. I think you should absolutely call this maintenance. You really are maintaining within a few pounds. Why don't you give yourself permission to maintain for a few months and then if you're feeling more into it, try to lose a bit more. Just remember not to try to get too low or you'll never maintain it. You're struggling now. What will happen then. You've done great things. Be proud of yourself and accept it.

  3. I kind of am with Miz on this based on how burned out you sound.... you havebeen pushing yourself very hard on all parts of your life. As long as you don't slip back to gaining & old lifestyle habits that were not good for you, a semi break may help.. maintenance for a bit. Your mind seems to need it to...

  4. give yourself a break, I am with Jody an Miz...wish I was where you are but never mind I am climbing back slowly.

    You are amazing.



  5. Wow. There is almost never such a strong consensus in the comments. Thank you all for giving me something to really think about.