Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Goodies Are Bad

I am feeling overworked and I attended a bake sale today. Let’s just say that it wasn’t a great combination…

- 4 glasses of water
- 2 cheddar rice cakes
- 1/2 cup flavoured jelly bellies
- 3/4 piece homemade lemon cake with lemon icing and topped with a jelly candy
- 1/2 piece homemade cranberry cake with icing
- 1 small slice homemade lemon pudding cake with glaze
- 1 piece homemade pecan square
- 1 lick of melted chocolate
- 1 small slice homemade chocolate pudding cake with glaze
- 3 small pieces homemade almond roca
- 1 cinnamon bun with icing
- 1 plain rice cake with cream cheese
- 1 piece homemade cranberry sunflower seed bark
- 3 pieces French toast on white bread with maple syrup
- 3/4 cup fat free cherry yogurt with 1 cup cocoa Rice Krispies cereal

- 10 squats


  1. I've gone back on your posts and am reading your blog, from the beginning.
    You are one of the reasons I decided, "today is the day"
    I enjoyed reading about your feeling towards food and your difficulties and success.
    Last night, as I was already in bed, I was reading your earlier entries before going to bed...
    Do you know that instead of turning off that light I got out of bed and did 150 cruches (3 variations of them so 3 times 50) and 40 leg lifts, because I saw that you would do something almost daily, and you made it.
    Just want to encourage you to not let yourself go!
    Us beginners need you!
    Hugs, Casey

  2. Agreed, Casey. We do need you.
    Those cakes sound delicious but no cake or goodie is worth losing the ground you fought so hard for.
    I once heard this and after losing 120 lbs myself and just starting to maintain, I'll try to not botch repeating it here: Yes, losing weight is hard. Maintaining a healthy weight is hard too. But so is being overweight. Remember it? Being overweight IS hard. Not in the stuff your face with whatever you want sort of way but in finding clothes, not feeling awesome about how you look, it being difficult to move around sort of way. It's all hard. Choose your struggle.
    I hope you choose to fight in this obvious fork in the road where you're at these days. You're an inspiration to many but I hope you continue to fight for yourself.

  3. Have you ever thought about going cold turkey with all of the sugar? It seems you're getting a significant amount of your calories from sugar, which of course is very addicting. I read your early blog and you weren't eating the way you have been currently (all of the sugar). Congrats on the weight loss, you've been able to do something that I haven't been able to do, but it's like watching a train crash with the way your eating has been going. Please step back and re-evaluate before it's too late.

  4. Hi - I always read your blog though rarely comment. You've received some amazing, loving and wise comments over the last few days. I just want to throw my 2 cents into the ring of support around you.

    My weight loss success has been essentially non-existent in the last 6 months - in fact I've been floundering. Up 3, down 2, with the key being that the up is slowly taking over. I don't want to do this again and I know you don't either.

    I'm a recovering alcoholic with over 19 years recovery. This makes me all the more susceptible to sugar and it's addictive effects. When I read the above comment suggesting you cold turkey on sugar for awhile, I wanted to agree but also suggest that you just do it for one day at a time. Esp. when in a cycle of emotional eating - the thought of going off sugar can be daunting, but for one day you can do it. Then you can reevaluate that night before sleep and see if you want to do another one day. And during the one days, you may have to break it into hours, even minutes.

    Also, prepare for withdrawal because you eat a lot of refined sugar as I often do, and the body misses it for the first few days! I've come off sugar many times and am amazed how the cravings disappear after 5-7 days. And before the cravings go, eat plenty of protein and healthy fat to keep satisfied.

    I hope you don't mind my unsolicited advice, but I couldn't help myself today! You have reminded me of myself in many ways from when I first started reading you. A couple of times I expressed concern that you weren't eating enough caloires when losing and you probably think I'm a jerk. Mainly I wish for us both to find peace with this! Leslie

  5. Girl...hold on tight. You are slipping on the slippery slope. Listen to these people.

  6. Go back and watch your own video. Read the first month of your posts. Remind yourself. Why are you sabotaging your success?

  7. I just wanted to say that I found this blog one day and could not put it down! I read avidly every step of your journey and watched your anniversary video with awe.

    You have achieved SO much I feel sad that you are falling at these last few hurdles. You seem overwhelmed, stressed and tired most of the time and I believe you are comfort eating to compensate for those feelings, and regaining weight as a result.

    I also see that your food logs contain many high sugar items (I realise today was exceptional) but everyday I read on your list, 2 cups of ice cream (could you cut that to half a cup?) or just have it as a once a week treat? The thing is, I think all this sugar is actually contributing to your tiredness. You get the sugar high and then the crash. At the beginning of your journey I notice you only ate small amounts of these things and focused your intake instead on fresh veggies and fruit, big yummy salads and lean protein. I believe if you got back to that regime you would see the difference in your energy AND on the scale.

    The other contributing factor is I do not believe it is possible to make up for a week of very low activity and high calorie intake with one ginormous workout (rowing session). If you returned to your previous daily walking/ running regime or DVD exercises I know you would begin to see positive results again.

    Please don't give up on yourself. I trust that you have the strength and willpower to reach your goal. Your health is important and you need to give it the priority it deserves. Fox.

  8. I've been lurking on your blog for several months now and I've been so amazed and impressed by your success. However, like many other commenters on this post, I am also concerned for you. Each time I visit and see an "ice cream blend" on your food list I think, "D'oh, not again!!!" I keep coming back and hoping that you've kicked that habit. I agree with Fox that bringing that down to a once-weekly indulgence would be a great idea. It can be a reward for making it through a each week of healthy eating.

    I really don't want to be harsh, but you know that cannot continue to eat as you have been recently. You need to get back on track today.

    I recently lost over 75 pounds and I'm currently working on losing the last 5 pounds to my final goal. I have struggled recently, too. I have given in to Halloween candy and goodies too often lately and I have seen a backslide on the scale. Finally, I asked myself, "Do I want this cookie/candy/cake/goodie more than I want to weigh XXX pounds??" The answer to that question is always NO. Ask yourself that question each time you go to take a bite of something that you know you shouldn't be eating. Remember how hard you worked to lose each and every pound. Why would you want to undo all of that hard work? You deserve better than that. (I also keep some of my "before" pictures on my phone - when I feel uncontrollable cravings I pull up a picture on my phone, stare at it for a few minutes and remind myself that I never want to be back there again... so I stay away from those bad goodies!)

    Of course, if you deprive yourself entirely, you will go nuts - which is why it's totally fine to have an occasional indulgence, like a once weekly ice cream treat, or a small dessert (try Skinny Cow ice creams if you have them in your area) daily. The reason I'm going to make it through today and an office kitchen stuffed with bear claws, cookies, and Halloween candy is because I know that tonight after dinner I will get to enjoy a Skinny Cow ice cream cup!

    I would also suggest getting back on the wagon with regular physical activity - try doing 1/2 hour of cardio at least 3 times a week. It might be a good idea to start training for another physical event - I was SO inspired by your 5k and 10k race stories. How about getting back to training for a half marathon? If you have that as a goal in mind, it might be easier to stick with it.

    You can get back on track. I believe in you.

  9. I have to agree with the other posters here. I stumbled on your blog a few weeks ago and was in tears when I saw your transformation video. As someone who has struggled with gaining and losing the same 30 pounds over and over, I don't want to see anyone else make the same mistake. It gets harder and harder to take off each time. I know you can do this. Do you think that planning your meals for the entire day would help? I noticed you are lacking a lot as far as nutrition goes, which could possibly explain why the sugar cravings are hitting so hard. You are my inspiration, you gotta get back on track! Sorry if that sounds selfish. ;)

  10. Lots of comments from people who are hoping to see you get off of the sugar. I agree with them and think you will feel so much better when you start to eat a more balanced diet. 2 cups of ice cream every day is a LOT of ice cream, I don't care what size you are.

    May I suggest when you stop eating sugar (and today would be a good day to stop), that you eat as much fresh fruit as you want to help quell the cravings. This has helped me in the past. Then you can cut down on that as well. In the past I have been known as a sugar whore, so if I can do it, so can you.
    Good luck.