Monday, September 27, 2010

I Got Yelled At Today

This evening, I was walking through a department store, looking at Halloween costumes when my eye started to wander to the seasonal bags of candy and chips and other goodies. I thought, “I can just get one bag. What’s the harm?” Then I decided, no, I can buy something, but there is no reason to purchase a whole bag. So I started to look at the normal displays of chocolate bars and caramels and typical sugary temptations. That’s when my cravings went into overload. I suddenly wanted one of everything and quickly started to make a shortlist of the few things I would get so that I could go home, relax, and partake in all the treats.

Then, from out of nowhere I heard a voice absolutely screaming at me to get out! “What are you doing? Go away!” it yelled, and I obeyed without a second thought. “Start moving! Don’t look back! One foot in front of the other! Keep your head down and keep on going!” I was startled, but I did what the voice was telling me to. How could I not given that it was coming from inside my own head?

On top of that I faced a minor conflict a little later on. My inclination to reach for my running shoes instead of a pastry surprised me, but I went with it. Who am I to argue when my conscience is treating me right?

- 7 glasses of water
- 1 banana
- 3/4 cup fat free strawberry yogurt
- 1 wrap on a soft tortilla shell with deli ham, cheese, dried cranberries, spinach, fat free Miracle Whip, mustard, and pepper
- 2 grilled cheese sandwiches on whole wheat bread with margarine
- 1 cup peach yogurt
- 1/2 banana strawberry frozen yogurt tube
- 1 slice of a vanilla cream roll log
- 6 inch sub on an Italian herbs and cheese bun with deli ham, deli turkey, bacon, cheese, lettuce, tomato, black olives, onion, green pepper, light mayonnaise, honey mustard, and pepper
- 1/2 glass root beer
- 1 white chocolate and macadamia nut cookie
- 1 glazed doughnut
- 1 pumpkin spice steamed soy milk

- 30 minutes of jogging with a 5 minute walking warm up and a 5 minute walking cool down


  1. your running shoes over pastry is my weights over poptarts.

    I approve this message :)

  2. I am proud of you for walking away from the sugar.

  3. Yes! Yes! Yes! Welcome back girl. :) And that food list is looking soooo much better....I recognize foods from the earlier days...proud of ya'. :)

  4. I'm so proud of you! You did a lot better than me. I decided yesterday to get a package of Snackwell Devils food cake cookies. I was just going to have two a day. Well, I ate all 12 yesterday afternoon. Ugh. I think that you are doing awesome

  5. I love when the Good Voices are louder!!

  6. Glad to hear that your Inner Drill-sergeant is taking care of business.

  7. Good job! Keep it up. You're doing great.

  8. Yeah it feels good when you overcome the urges of not so good food. I know I had them myself yesterday.

  9. love it when they are the good voices, not the bad eat!! eat!! eat!! eat!! eat!! voices!!

  10. My first time posting here. Reading about your struggles to maintain I felt compelled to write.

    I absolutely understand how difficult it is to maintain once you have lost a great amount of weight. I'm a guy in my mid 30's and believe me when I say it can be just as difficult for the guys to maintain as it is for the ladies. I sat down the other day and calculated that between all my losses, gains, and re-losses (that a word? LOL) I have lost close to 300 lbs.

    I'm currently in the process of losing yet again. The losing part is no problem for me. When I focus on healthy eating and exercise the weight falls off of me very rapidly. But every time I hit my weight goal its like something happens. It's hard to explain. It's like my mentality changes. Yes, I hit my goal, so I don't need to push myself anymore. I can just coast. I can enjoy some of the "bad" foods that I was eating when I was heavy. But all of a sudden one bad meal becomes one bad day of meals, becomes one bad week of meals, becomes one bad month and so on until I'm back where I started or worse.

    It's a horrible feeling looking at yourself in the mirror after you have gained back all of the weight you worked so hard to lose.

    Please don't let it happen to you. I'm not saying these words as scare tactics. I just don't want anyone to have to feel the way I do looking in the mirror. (or avoiding mirrors as I mostly do)

    This time around I'm determined to keep my edge. I've already lost a bunch of weight again. I'm still a few months from my end weight loss goal. But the loss is really just a minor goal this time around. The bigger goal is to keep pushing myself to maintain.

    I'm looking at myself in the mirror everyday now. I can't run away from myself so I'm not going to try. Just keep pushing myself.

    This time I'm going to be successful!!!

  11. I used to crave sweets terribly. After studying about the supplement chromium picolinate I decided to try it. It took a couple of weeks but I really don't care too much about sweets anymore! Might be worth a try.

  12. I hear that voice a lot and am only recently learning to actually obey it. Dr. Beck calls it the "no choice" standard. Just tell yourself that you can not have it, no choice, no small bite, no just one bar, etc., simple no, and there is no choice in the matter.

    The more I tell myself this the more it seems to work.

    Great job for you ! :)

  13. your sugar has really increased which has many bad effects that come with it. sugar turns to fat! try some xylitol products. taste just like sugar. I have a great cook book, Sweeten your life the Xylitol way by karen edwards. check it out. get some more water also..don't grow weary in well doing:)