Sunday, April 18, 2010


I had a great dragon boating practice. I enjoyed participating as an audience member in the filming of an amateur music video. I got to spend a few peaceful moments with my wonderful husband. I am also really looking forward to a meeting that I have tomorrow. Overall, the day has been really great.

But I am in a bad mood. I am feeling a bit unsupported by a lot of the people in my life and am not very happy about it. Maybe ‘unsupported' is the wrong word: Forgotten? Unimportant? Like the very last thing on a long, long list of various priorities? Whatever. I am indignant.

I think I’m normally a pretty positive person, but I just don’t have the energy, nor the desire, to look for the silver lining right now. Apparently it is a time for wallowing and, unfortunately, wallowing doesn’t tend to make for terribly inspiring writing.

I might post in the morning. I might not. I’ll get over myself soon though and have something more upbeat to record at some point tomorrow. For tonight, reporting on the food and the exercise is taking a backseat to my irritability. Then again, I can’t help but recall that it supposedly takes more muscles to frown than to smile. Maybe I am burning a higher number of calories than usual due to my present state…

- 5 glasses of water
- 1 wrap on a soft tortilla shell with deli ham, cheese, dried cranberries, spinach, fat free Miracle Whip, mustard, and pepper
- 1 banana
- 2 small Mandarin oranges
- 3/4 cup fat free peach yogurt with 1 cup honey nut granola cereal
- 5 tortilla chips with salsa
- 1 mug extra coconut steamed soy milk
- 6 pieces of a California sushi roll with soy sauce

- 25 minute walk
- 1 hour and 10 minutes of rowing a dragon boat


  1. get a punching bag...that burns calories and releases frustration.
    feel better.

    I know I have totallyenttirelyandwholly been where you are and felt the sort of feelings you are wrestling with right now.

    I dare say we all have.

    pamper yourself today in whatever SMALL fashion fits.

    make you a priority as we are, indeed, all we have.

    xo xo

  3. Hope you feel better today! I have felt this way before myself. I agree with Miz do something for yourself today.

  4. I am supporting you so you do what is right & good for you!!!!


  5. Chris is right, a punching bag works great. But I prefer to chop wood! I end up with a big pile of firewood perfectly sized for the wood burning stove in my cabin, I've just had a very sweaty workout, and my hostilities are gone! The world looks beautiful again...even the people. :-)

  6. I feel ya! I get like that once in awhile. Things will look brighter tomorrow, and if not then, it will only be a few days. In the meantime, as someone above said, take care of you!

  7. I think its true... we all feel as you do now and then. Allow yourself to feel it and try to be kind to yourself. Take some time to be good to yourself.. maybe a bubble bath, pedicure... that's what I do when I'm feeling "unappreciated"...

    We know our worth even if others don't. Hang in there okay... hugs

  8. Go for a run - runner's high! I totally feel that way sometime too - like, why isn't this person more interested in what's going on in my life? Why do I always have to show the initiative in this relationship, etc? Feel better!

  9. You are all so sweet and I really should have tried any number of your suggestions! I am through my wallowing now, but I basically just ignored myself. Hmmm... that's probably not good!