They don’t exist. Those slow-paced, hot and languid days filled with fun and frivolity are currently as much a fantasy as me being able to eat whatever I want without gaining an ounce…
I got a very lengthy and thought-provoking message from Blue today that really helped me to look at an aspect of the problems I have been having that I hadn’t yet fully explored. I feel like every time I write on this blog lately that I am grasping at straws, trying to nail down my issue and attempting to figure out the best way to handle the difficulties I have been having. I get a lot of really astute comments (the most recent ones which stick out in my mind being from Jessica and Robin), some wonderfully motivating remarks (yes, Tammy, that is largely directed at you), and even a few caring personal emails (Dawne, you are just awesome) and so I do have a lot going on in my mind as I try to process my way through all of the fabulous insights that others have been taking the time to offer me of late.
And, once again, one of my dear readers has given me a piece of the puzzle that I didn’t even know was missing. Blue essentially went back and read through my posts for the past month and a half in an attempt to key in to what really triggered this off-track bout that I have been working my way through. And she came up with something that I thought really deserved some careful exploration.
May 4th saw me running for the hills. I was overwhelmed with my many projects and noticing that I was beginning to be short with others as a result. So I wisely took a couple of days break and embarked on a mini vacation to recharge my batteries.
It was fabulous and I am so glad that I did it. I honestly think that it helped to bring a certain calmness to my frenzied efforts and that it was necessary and a successful solution. However, now that I am examining it more closely, I also believe that said solution only extended to the immediate circumstances and that it really didn’t do much at all for my long-term well-being.
I think I have recognized something important here. I am still feeling beyond overwhelmed with all that I have to do in the coming weeks. My husband and I have been teasing each other for a few months now that we will see one another in August. The sad part though is that such a joke isn’t funny when it’s largely accurate. We really have been extremely busy and truly don’t think that things will slow down until July is over.
So what to do? I am going to mull this over, but I do already have a couple of thoughts. I will post a second part to this entry tomorrow once I have had a chance to really think things through carefully. Off the top of my head, I think that another bandaid may be in order for the short term and that as a more enduring solution that one or two things may have to be put on hold until I have more of an opportunity to give them the attention they require. Overall, I need to lighten my load so that I can lighten myself, both in the weight loss sense and for my mental well-being.
FOOD & BEVERAGES:
- 8 glasses of water
- 1 wrap on a soft tortilla shell with deli ham, cheese, dried cranberries, spinach, fat free Miracle Whip, mustard, and pepper
- 3/4 cup fat free peach yogurt with 1 cup rice and wheat flake granola cereal
- 1 large banana
- 2 cups pineapple
- 3 1/2 cups celery with light peanut butter
- 2 golden delicious apples with cinnamon
- 2 cups mint chocolate bar ice cream blend
- 1 mug decaffeinated tea with milk
- 30 stomach crunches