Sunday, September 6, 2009

Unanswered Questions

Why isn't this harder? I keep on asking myself this question and I really haven't come up with a good answer yet. I truly cannot wrap my head around why I am not having more difficulty sticking to my plan and living this healthier lifestyle.

There have definitely been some very hard moments, and more cravings that I would like to admit to, but overall this has not been nearly the struggle that I had expected. I don't feel like I am staving myself - in fact, I think that I have been eating considerably more now than I was when consuming all the unhealthy stuff. I am not even disliking all the activity.

What has changed this time around? Again, a query that I wish I could respond to with some insight, yet I simply haven't any. I am not sure why I failed all the other times and why these particular efforts seem to be so effective.

I do know that for the first time I feel as if this is something I could do forever. I am unsure as to whether this is simply a honeymoon stage, or a genuine commitment to a new way of living, but I am positive that it is working right now. And I certainly hope that it continues to provide me with the energy, motivation, and enjoyment that is has thus far.

I think that everything I have accomplished over the last few weeks is what I would call my perfect lifestyle. I still want to weigh less to be able to do more of the things I feel like I can't quite physically achieve just yet, but I am doing what feels natural, instinctual, and right.

I know what it is like to battle with weight issues. I have done so for a decade and a half. I have tried so many different fads, diets, and exercise programs in the past and - even if I lost a little weight initially - unfailingly found myself weighing more after those programs than I did when I started. This doesn't appear to be struggle though. This feels more like I'm coming home.


  1. I could have written this post!! I know for me, this time I decided I was really going to do it. This time I wanted to really learn healthier habits instead of just cutting out food groups. I also have two little ones who need to live a healthy life and never have to worry about this crap or about a parent with health issues. I'm not doing it to look pretty, be popular, get a new boyfriend, fit in cuter clothes, etc. I'm doing this to be healthy and looking cute is just a pleasant side effect. :)

  2. It's easier this time because your mind is finally in the right place. You want to lose the weight for good, through healthier changes and foods, that you can sustain for a lifetime and actually enjoy. Some days will be harder than others....sometimes a whole week totally sucks...but with the right mental attitude, you can make it through's the mind that needs the most change and the body will naturally follow suit. Welcome home girl...welcome home. :)

  3. Very well put, great post! And I agree 100% with Melissa and Tammy.
    Your mind is in the right place this time. I think it helps to have such a wonderful blogging "family" for support as well. I know it has certainly made a huge difference for me.
    And to echo Tammy's sentiment-Welcome home!:-)

  4. It's your time. It's my time too! Let's do it!

  5. Hmmm... making up your mind to really achieve what you want. Sounds simple enough, but do you think it would work for guessing the lottery numbers... grin!