I avoided the cheesecake.
After last night's post I actually felt better, more focused, and able to understand my own strengths and shortcomings a little more. Writing about how I was feeling was very cathartic and I think that I will be able to turn to that entry for clarity in the future if I once more find myself teetering on another ledge.
This morning I awoke, more at peace and not quite as ready to pounce on the next chocolate bar that I saw, but was still a bit down. I wasn't quite where I needed to be to face this day without risk. Even though I was hoping to get through this Thursday unscathed, the thought of pizza was still playing close to the surface of my mind.
But then I read all of your comments. Thank you. You are an unbelievably kind and supportive group of individuals and your words have made an enormous difference. Everything that every one of you wrote rang true to some degree for me, and I now know that I am able to face this world - and my problems - without burying my head in a tub of ice cream.
Thank you so much! Your encouragement is richer and more satisfying than any cheesecake!