Friday, October 2, 2009

Wishing For A Winter Coat

The thing that I am most looking forward to about the upcoming winter is the heavier clothes. I know that sounds strange, but the reason behind why I am anticipating this is the truly weird part…

I want to hide behind the curtain until it is time for an unveiling. I don’t know why, but the idea of being wrapped up in obscurity until I can make more of a show of my weight loss is really appealing right now. I think there must be something wrong with me.

I guess that because people don’t seem to really be noticing much in the way of the changes to my shape nor my eating and exercise patterns, I feel like it would be interesting to actually put effort into minimizing any attention those differences may attract in the near future. Wearing the thicker, longer-sleeved, often layered clothing of winter would be optimal camouflage.

Come spring - and the warmer weather that we are so quickly moving away from now - I can picture casually showing up to something in new jeans and a t-shirt and having people be wowed. I envision friends and family being flabbergasted at the changes that they failed to notice beforehand.

It’s silly. I know that. But it is something that has been floating around in my head for the last couple of days. Nearly no one in my life has noticed the losses and I guess I am feeling a little bit frustrated. I know that I am doing this mostly for myself, but it just gets me a little down when my efforts aren’t being recognized. It makes me want to take that minor hold that I have let them have over my emotions and shape things so that I am more in control of my feelings about their apparent lack of interest or attention.

It’s a bit of a paradox, really. I want to be noticed so I’m contemplating putting in effort to remain unnoticed. Like I said: it’s silly.

FOOD & BEVERAGES:
- 10 glasses of water throughout the day
- 1 1/2 cups of pineapple
- 1 1/2 cups of chicken noodle soup
- 3 cups of beef and broccoli
- 2 cups of celery with 2 Tb. Mexican cheese spread
- 1 homemade banana cupcake with peanut butter frosting

EXERCISE:
- 2 hour and 35 minute walk
- 4 sets of 10 knee push ups
- 4 sets of 30 stomach crunches (2 straight, 1 right, and 1 left)
- 4 sets of 15 lunges for each leg

15 comments:

  1. Makes sense to me! If people don't comment, you're not SURE the difference is noticeable, even though you KNOW it is.

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  2. I know how you feel about the desire to unveil, while at the same time, feeling the desire to stay hidden.

    People will start to notice very soon. For me, it was right around 50 pounds that I got the first tenative questions. Even then, people weren't sure. But after that first 50, then the questions and comments were abundant to the point where I just wanted everyone to stop talking about it and let me "do my thing."

    I never had a coat when I was heavy. I could get away with it because we lived in Florida. I still remember moving to Virginia soon after I lost the weight, and having to shop for a winter coat. It was a very different shopping experience than what I would have had to do before.

    Take care, and I hope you have a great weekend. Keep up the good work!

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  3. Oooh, what a great idea!

    I can see the Big Reveal now, like a butterfly emerging from its crysalis!

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  4. Totally makes sense! So if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go layer myself up!!! :-)

    Those reveals are seriously my favorite part of losing weight, or maybe second to, you know, actually losing the weight. Oh, but reveals are so much fun!!

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  5. I think that's a fantastic idea. I totally understand wanting to do that.
    I'm sure that it is noticable to some people, but that they don't know what to say.
    Do what makes you comfortable though. I can't wait to hear what people have to say.
    You are doing great!! Keep up the good work.

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  7. This is totally not a silly idea. It makes a lot of sense, I am right there with you! I live in Massachusetts, so cold is something we have in abundance. I too am ready to layer up and then have a big reveal when the weather gets warmer.

    Sometimes it seems like people are afraid to ask or comment, because they think I'll take offense. Uh, yeah I lost weight, it was hard work, it doesn't mean I think you're commenting on the fact that I had weight to lose, you're commenting that I have done well, look better, so comment away, thanks!

    Of course, like Diane said, it might get annoying after a while, justshutupalready! But, right now, staring down the barrel of 100+lbs, encouragement and people noticing the smallest changes will help a lot with the motivation to continue!

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  8. Brilliant strategy! And here I always used wearing jeans and long sleeves as a way to avoid shaving my legs and pits everyday. :)

    I shall now point towards May, and my own "great reveal". Thanks for the idea.

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  9. I think you should show up to the event in a thong bikini!!! Forget the jeans after all the hard work you're doing!?! :)

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  10. For me, winter means no shorts. And no shorts means- no shaving my legs!!!!!!!! My husband just has to learn to live with it...

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  11. Your dream will come true.
    Hold on to it and stay the course and come next spring you will amaze everyone!

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  12. Ooh, I like it!

    WE notice, by the way. Aren't you due for another picture? If I can post every two pounds, shouldn't you be posting after fifteen? :)

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  13. Gosh, I thought you would all think I was being odd! Nice to know I'm not nuts (at least, not in regards to this).

    Dawne, a thong bikini may be a little out of my comfort zone right now, but thanks for thinking of me! LOL!

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  14. Makes perfect sense to me!! You know, I've kind of been thinking sort of along the same lines, except mine doesn't have to do with the people noticing me/not noticing me part. If I stay on track, then I should reach my goal in April (unless I hit a MAJOR plateau)...and I've been thinking about how cool it's going to be hidden under winter clothes all season, and then when April get here...VOILA!!! HELLO WORLD!!! SKINNY TAMMY IS HERE!!!! :)

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