The thing that I am most looking forward to about the upcoming winter is the heavier clothes. I know that sounds strange, but the reason behind why I am anticipating this is the truly weird part…
I want to hide behind the curtain until it is time for an unveiling. I don’t know why, but the idea of being wrapped up in obscurity until I can make more of a show of my weight loss is really appealing right now. I think there must be something wrong with me.
I guess that because people don’t seem to really be noticing much in the way of the changes to my shape nor my eating and exercise patterns, I feel like it would be interesting to actually put effort into minimizing any attention those differences may attract in the near future. Wearing the thicker, longer-sleeved, often layered clothing of winter would be optimal camouflage.
Come spring - and the warmer weather that we are so quickly moving away from now - I can picture casually showing up to something in new jeans and a t-shirt and having people be wowed. I envision friends and family being flabbergasted at the changes that they failed to notice beforehand.
It’s silly. I know that. But it is something that has been floating around in my head for the last couple of days. Nearly no one in my life has noticed the losses and I guess I am feeling a little bit frustrated. I know that I am doing this mostly for myself, but it just gets me a little down when my efforts aren’t being recognized. It makes me want to take that minor hold that I have let them have over my emotions and shape things so that I am more in control of my feelings about their apparent lack of interest or attention.
It’s a bit of a paradox, really. I want to be noticed so I’m contemplating putting in effort to remain unnoticed. Like I said: it’s silly.
FOOD & BEVERAGES:
- 10 glasses of water throughout the day
- 1 1/2 cups of pineapple
- 1 1/2 cups of chicken noodle soup
- 3 cups of beef and broccoli
- 2 cups of celery with 2 Tb. Mexican cheese spread
- 1 homemade banana cupcake with peanut butter frosting
- 2 hour and 35 minute walk
- 4 sets of 10 knee push ups
- 4 sets of 30 stomach crunches (2 straight, 1 right, and 1 left)
- 4 sets of 15 lunges for each leg