I Will Sail My Vessel

I’m not stupid. I know that I have had great success with my weight loss so far and I am so, so thankful that things are progressing as quickly as they are. I have a hard time sticking with things when I don’t see fast results – I might suggest that I am an instant gratification kind of person, but really it just boils down to the need for validation – so the fact that I have been able to drop my weight so drastically in just three months has been a motivator that keeps me very focused.

But there have still been a couple of tiny bumps in the road which make me a little sad to know that I haven’t quite met my own expectations. Believe me when I say they are minor, I learn and then move on from the disappointments quickly, and I return to the gratitude that I have for all that has been accomplished thus far.

So when I didn’t get to under the two hundred pound mark by my two hundredth post yesterday I did have a quiet moment of ego deflation. It was a new mini-goal, conceived less than a week ago, but I had still hoped to meet it since I was closing in on onederland. But after the week of weird weigh-ins, I knew that I was not going to make it happen.

But it doesn’t matter! Regardless of what hiccups occur on this journey the point is to continue walking the path. Don’t give up! I know that my small let down was exactly that: small. It is nothing compared to the setbacks that I could have faced since beginning this blog. However, I also believe that I would keep going regardless of larger difficulties because I want so badly to drop these extra pounds and become a healthier person.

I know how very lucky I have been steering this weight loss ship through calm seas. Yet, at this point, there is a determination inside of me that would not be dissuaded by even the roughest of storms. Off in the far distance I can see dry land, and I am confident that I can navigate my way past all the rolling waves, sea monsters, and pirates that may want to throw me off course as I head for the buried treasure. One day soon I will uncover that chest of gold and receive my reward… ironically, as I sail towards that particular shoreline I am working to relieve myself of my own booty.