Monday, November 16, 2009

I Will Sail My Vessel

I’m not stupid. I know that I have had great success with my weight loss so far and I am so, so thankful that things are progressing as quickly as they are. I have a hard time sticking with things when I don’t see fast results – I might suggest that I am an instant gratification kind of person, but really it just boils down to the need for validation – so the fact that I have been able to drop my weight so drastically in just three months has been a motivator that keeps me very focused.

But there have still been a couple of tiny bumps in the road which make me a little sad to know that I haven’t quite met my own expectations. Believe me when I say they are minor, I learn and then move on from the disappointments quickly, and I return to the gratitude that I have for all that has been accomplished thus far.

So when I didn’t get to under the two hundred pound mark by my two hundredth post yesterday I did have a quiet moment of ego deflation. It was a new mini-goal, conceived less than a week ago, but I had still hoped to meet it since I was closing in on onederland. But after the week of weird weigh-ins, I knew that I was not going to make it happen.

But it doesn’t matter! Regardless of what hiccups occur on this journey the point is to continue walking the path. Don’t give up! I know that my small let down was exactly that: small. It is nothing compared to the setbacks that I could have faced since beginning this blog. However, I also believe that I would keep going regardless of larger difficulties because I want so badly to drop these extra pounds and become a healthier person.

I know how very lucky I have been steering this weight loss ship through calm seas. Yet, at this point, there is a determination inside of me that would not be dissuaded by even the roughest of storms. Off in the far distance I can see dry land, and I am confident that I can navigate my way past all the rolling waves, sea monsters, and pirates that may want to throw me off course as I head for the buried treasure. One day soon I will uncover that chest of gold and receive my reward… ironically, as I sail towards that particular shoreline I am working to relieve myself of my own booty.


  1. lol....I agree with Karen...very well written....that last line made me laugh out loud! :)

  2. I always had the highest of expectations for myself too and often let it steer me off course. The best thing is you now realize it and don't let it stop you. Your are doing awesome girl~

  3. Good outlook on it all. You have done very well and you look great. Do you have a size in mind?

  4. you will be there before you know it. 3 the grand scheme....will go by in a flash. Keep up your good work.

  5. you've done great. 60lbs in 3-4 months is unheard of for many. You'll get there.

  6. I admit it; I was pretty proud of that last line! :)

    Lyricgirl, I have to say I actually don't have a particular size in mind. When I was still a slender teen I was never all that worried about my size so I am not sure what that would look like, and I never knew smaller sizes as an overweight / obese adult. If I had to guess, I would say I am aiming for the single digits, but I couldn't offer forth a particular number until I figured out what they looked like on me. Great question though!

  7. Absolutely fabulous - sorry you didn't make the mini goal but that self realization is worth a hundred mini goals. Thank you for posting this.