Friday, December 4, 2009

Habit Versus Emotion

My biggest achievement today reassured me that I am going to be able to be successful at this for life. I was in Starbucks right after I had my disagreement with my friend and saw that they had a huge tray full of small samples of my favourite seasonal bar – which, by the way, I have deftly avoided purchasing since they came out a couple of weeks ago. Anyhow, I did take one, but told my husband not to bother when he offered to grab a second piece for me. Here’s the best part though: I didn’t eat the treat until I knew I was well and truly past any possibility of triggering an emotionally charged feast, plus I cut it in half to share so that I only had a single bite when I finally ate it.

I was just commenting on another blog about the fact that I have been fortunate in this journey so far. A big part of that is that I believe I am dealing more with poor eating habits than with genuine cause-and-effect reactions. I know that I was very much an emotional eater in the past, but I think that over the span of the last couple of years I have gotten to a point where – after a lot of self-refection – I am no longer generally in danger of eating a whole cheesecake because I feel sad, happy, angry, bored, etc. I think that the habits formed from such prior actions are what remained the problem for the last while that I stayed wrapped within my extra layers of fat.

I still worry that I can slip into those poor practices if I don’t take care and remain aware, which is why I was so concerned about how I would fair this morning after the blow up. I think that I did well though, and surviving moments like today’s gives me even more hope that I can, and will, conquer my obesity once and for all.

- 9 glasses of water throughout the day
- 1 Mandarin orange
- 6 inch sub on a whole wheat bun with ham, cheese, lettuce, tomato, green pepper, onion, black olives, light mayonnaise, mustard, and pepper
- 1 mug of steamed light eggnog
- 2 cups chicken and broccoli stir-fry with yellow pepper, garlic, onion, and soy sauce
- 1 bite of a cranberry bliss bar
- 1 pear
- 2 cups Caesar salad with fat free dressing, dried cranberries, and croutons

- 1 hour and 30 minutes of walking completed in 2 outings (1 hour long and 30 minutes long)


  1. That is so encouraging to hear. Just reading that today gives me hope for my day. Thanks.

  2. That is wonderful to hear! You are awesome!

  3. Yay! Congrats! I love that you are so aware of it all. That alone will ensure you get to your goal and never go back! I'm a big fan of self-reflection; when we can answer and understand the "Why?" everything becomes so much easier & is grounded in something real. Great post!

  4. I'm an emotional eater as well...and when I'm bored...I've been on this journey for 10 months at can see that I still go through times where all I want to do is eat and cant stop myself...

  5. When you strip away all the bogus reasons for eating and break it down to a "fuel the body" deal, it's amazing just how much less we need without even being uncomfortable. I eat all day long, it seems. I'm rarely hungry, and never feel deprived.

    Excellent post.

  6. "I am going to be able to be successful at this for life."

    Wow! How great is that?!

  7. Thank you! Thank you! I am still living in fear of something turning the "eat everything" switch back on because of some emotional upset. Being aware of what I am eating and why I am eating it is still tough for me.

  8. Wow that took a lot of strength to do!
    Thinking things through first is a huge NSV!
    (Non scale victory)

  9. Loved that you realize where you have been & where you are going & are on your way!!! Understanding what makes us tick is one of the hardest things. Sounds like you are there!

    Congrats on it all! You will do this! I have no doubt!

  10. You will be successful because you have the right attitude and outlook. You have the strength to suceed!

  11. Wow! Thank you all for the outpouring of encouragement! I am so happy all of you follow my journey and help keep me motivated along the way!