I uploaded several photographs onto my social network page yesterday. They were just a few pictures from the last six months or so that highlighted what I’ve been up to lately, but as I was finishing I realized something really odd.
I didn’t put up a single photo that significantly showed my weight loss. Not one. The closest I came was a cropped picture of my husband and I which shows that my face looks thinner.
Why did I do that? More importantly, why – when I realized what I had done – did I not add other pictures to better show the changes I have gone through? I’m not sure that I have a complete answer.
I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that there are a few people that I haven’t seen in quite a while. I have friends, and even family, who are not in the know about the healthier choices I have been making. Also, a few have heard about what I have been doing, but have yet to see the visual evidence of my efforts. I suppose a big part of my answer to the questions I am posing is that I want to save my ‘wow’ reactions and savour them as they come naturally. I don’t want to dilute the responses that I am guessing those far-away and not-often-seen people may have regarding my loss.
Then there is the more morose reason that I suspect I also have for holding back the more telling photographs. I do not want to deal with those individuals who are not really in my life – most of us have those high school buddies and old work colleagues we are ‘friends’ with on these sites – suddenly commenting on or questioning me about the weight I have lost. Maybe I am being silly or sensitive or likely giving myself way too much credit for assuming I am that interesting, but I just don’t want to answer to people who are not involved in my life on a regular basis.
It was certainly intriguing when I figured out that I had edited my pictures so specifically without even initially realizing it. This whole journey is so much more than simply losing weight. I have discovered a lot about myself over these past five months and much of it has little to do with my physical health, although most of it does directly relate to me becoming healthier in an ever-changing, yet ever-lasting, way.
FOOD & BEVERAGES:
- 10 glasses of water throughout the day
- 2 Mandarin oranges
- 1 wrap on a soft pesto tortilla shell with deli chicken breast, grated cheese, spinach, dried cranberries, fat free Miracle Whip, mustard, and pepper
- 2 1/2 cups celery with calorie-wise three cheese ranch dressing
- 3/4 cup fat free peach yogurt
- 2 cups spinach salad with grated cheese, croutons, pomegranate arils, mushroom, and Greek feta and oregano dressing
- 1 hour and 30 minutes of walking completed in 2 outings (35 minutes long and 55 minutes long)
- 25 minute workout video